Two years ago today, my life changed drastically. Many peoples’ lives changed drastically. It’s amazing how big a hole one person can leave.
I haven’t been paying much attention to the date, to tell the truth. There have been a large number of things distracting me from remembering the significance. Some good, some bad. All of them seem to be making today somewhat easier for me than it seems like it should be.
Maybe it also has something to do with the fact that I don’t really do much with anniversaries in general. Or, maybe I’m just repressing it all, and at some point today or tonight or next week, I’ll break down. I don’t know.
Two years is a long time. And such a short time.
I’ve gotten to a point where I’ve reached an equilibrium. Anti-depressants help too.
Fitting that this song came on right now. I credit the band for a lot of my better mood. Without them, I think I’d be a lot less hopeful.
I still miss Ian. Always. But there are better days just up this road. I hope.
Written 2/18/2016
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