I’m doing THINGS. I’ve been really busy lately. I’ve been meeting new people, and going on DATES and overall, all of the things I’m doing are exciting and good. I’m lucky. And that’s a good thing.
So, why is it that when I walk away from a really great practice session with my band, or leave a promising date, that the FIRST thing I think is, I miss Ian?
He wouldn’t have been with me on any of these things. It’s not as though we were constantly together or anything.
But I guess it DOES make some sort of sense, because we were constantly talking. I would have told him about it. We would have been texting each other. He would have laughed at me for something stupid I said on a date, or been overjoyed at how well things were working with the band. He would have been there as my Person.
So maybe it does make sense. I just feel like it shouldn’t still be this way. I feel like I should be enjoying all these amazing and good things, and that the FIRST thought after they’re over shouldn’t be that I miss him. But it still is. Maybe that never stops. I don’t know.
He was my Person.
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Written 5/19/2015
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