Sunday Letter #34

Ian, I stopped writing these a long time ago, because it felt like I was holding on to something I shouldn’t. But today I want to write to you. It’s been a very eventful week for me, and I know if you were here, you’d celebrate with me. You’d be proud. We hired our friend, […]

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Sunday Letter #33

Dear Ian, This may be the last letter I write to you. I still don’t know if they were good ideas to begin with, but now, I feel like they may be aiding me in avoiding letting go. I felt like I had a choice in that… I’m not sure why, because obviously none of […]

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Sunday Letter #32

Ian, A year ago this afternoon, you and I weren’t talking. A year ago this evening, events conspired to throw us back together, and a year ago in the wee hours of tomorrow morning, I told you, sitting in the front seat of my car, that being with you was like coming home. And you […]

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Sunday Letter #31

Ian, I went to karaoke on Friday. It was fun, and I didn’t sing any of our songs. It wasn’t at our normal place. I’ve only been back there once since, and that was too hard. I love that place, though, so I hope, eventually, I’ll be up for it. This week, I’m a little […]

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Sunday Letter #30

Ian, Thanksgiving was lovely. My mom and I spent the afternoon with your family, and they are wonderful. I can’t imagine they weren’t feeling your absence. You came up in conversation pretty naturally, and it was good to be able to just be, and not feel bad about mentioning you. I did miss cooking, however, […]

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Sunday Letter #29

Ian, I don’t know if these letters necessarily help me, or anyone else. But for lack of a distinct impression either way, I’m going to continue them. This week was ok. I had a friend from college visit this weekend, which was really nice. I wish you could have been here to hang with us. […]

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Sunday Letter #28

Ian, This week has been a rough one. I’m not sure why, but it’s been hard. I talked for a long time with a co-worker from out of town who also had her best friend die. It wasn’t suicide, and she got a chance to say goodbye. She got to hold his hand as he […]

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Sunday Letter #27

Ian, Despite a pretty terrible start, this week was surprisingly good. We started a D&D game with a group from work, that you would absolutely be a part of. But even though you’re not, I’m able to have fun… Let an alternate world take me away for a while. I’m getting tired of hearing myself […]

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Sunday Letter # 26

Dear Ian, Today I was thinking a lot about what could have been. If you’d given a real relationship with me a chance, that is. I’m very well aware that it wouldn’t have been perfect. That it may well have been disastrous. However, it may also have been wonderful, and I was pondering that possibility. […]

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Sunday Letter #25

Ian, I have been busy this week. Stressfully so, but it’s also good. We had our annual chili cookoff at work. One of our co-workers and I talked about your entry last year. I remember you being so excited about it. I stand by it being a good idea, and he and I were talking […]

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