Taking a Break

I apologize to my readers, but for the moment, I am going to be taking a break from this blog. Things have continued to progress in every avenue of my life, and for the next few weeks, at least, I don’t anticipate much time for reflection/healing/pondering. Much less writing about it. I will be back. […]

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Winning Against Depression

I found this article in my wanderings today, and I tried to read it. I’m not sure how far I got, because I didn’t look down to the end, to see how much was left. I couldn’t. See, I was taken over by this irrational and very vitriolic hatred of the author. He survived. He […]

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It Doesn’t Stop

I’m doing THINGS. I’ve been really busy lately. I’ve been meeting new people, and going on DATES and overall, all of the things I’m doing are exciting and good. I’m lucky. And that’s a good thing. So, why is it that when I walk away from a really great practice session with my band, or […]

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Memory

Memory is a funny thing. It’s been a while since I really LOOKED at a picture of Ian. I have them all over the place, and I glance at them all the time. But to stop and LOOK, that’s something that takes a little dedicated time afterward to recover. It always makes me at least […]

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Missing

I have been absent this week. All the things I wrote about in my Sunday letter to Ian have kept me so busy, I haven’t had time to do much except keep up. Hopefully, next week, I’ll have a little more time to reflect, think, and post. 555 total views, 1 views today

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Sunday Letter #34

Ian, I stopped writing these a long time ago, because it felt like I was holding on to something I shouldn’t. But today I want to write to you. It’s been a very eventful week for me, and I know if you were here, you’d celebrate with me. You’d be proud. We hired our friend, […]

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The Myth

All of us are raised with a mythical ideal. If you do this, then that will happen. If you follow this path, it will lead there. The rules are different for women and men. For various cultures, religions, etc. But there are ‘rules’ that if you follow, things will go an expected way. Not to […]

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Suck It Up

I know a lot of my recent posts have been about the ways in which I’m progressing. Today, I feel less like progress is happening, and more as though I’m just faking it really well. See, I still don’t eat as much as I probably should. Mostly because every time I eat, I feel sick. […]

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Self Evaluations

It’s interesting. I decided to look back at the blog posts I made a year ago, see if and how I’m doing better. Turns out I’m a lot different now than I was then. Both in predictable ways – ways that make sense – and in unpredictable, surprising ways. But there are still some similarities. Those are […]

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Progress?

At some point, you come unstuck. That’s the phrase that keeps running through my head. I was (understandably) stuck… I miss Ian. I wasn’t able to look at or see anything beyond that. I don’t think the length of time I was stuck is too long. I wonder if it was too short. And, maybe […]

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