They say don’t make any major decisions for a while after a tragedy that affects you deeply. I can see the sense in that.
I think if it weren’t for my cat needing me here, I may have made some very stupid decisions lately.
At what point, though, is it better to act than not? I have always loved music, and performing… And lately, I watched the latest season of The Voice… Which I think is a phenomenal show. And I wonder why I’ve never gone for it. Why haven’t I acted on my love of music? I keep coming up with what seem to me right now to be chickenshit excuses. Maybe they really are. Or maybe I’m reeling and shouldn’t mKe big decisions because that’s common sense talking.
All I know is right now, I’m dissatisfied with myself, my life, my decisions… And that on top of being so destroyed because of Ian isn’t going over well. Something’s gotta give.
Written 6/15/2014
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